im sad yet im laughing
im hurt yet im going on strong

a big disappoinment when i realized that one last obstacle to face is to learn how to love and trust again was given up half way and yet i have chose a path for myself to look things again and let things go. no matter how hurt i am, no matter how sad i am, i wont show it. maybe that would be my motto from now on. *laughs*

things are different from what it seems, i keep thinking back memories and most of them brought tears to my eyes. crying alone when there isnt anyone next to you to comfort you is hard, but that is what i must face. finding things or songs that will trigger my emotions, i have to hide it away. i must learn to be strong from now, that is what i feel. but the only thing im afraid, that when i break, would i ever be the same again?

friends will be there for me, and im thankful for that. god made me this way and probably have set a path for me to follow. if obstacles i have faced along the way, with hopes and supports i will make it through.

be strong with whatever you do. no matter how hard you fall, there is always a way to come back up again. and when you do, you will be stronger. it applies to any kind of situation. work, relationships, friendships and more. what do you think?

for me when it comes to love, i have fallen once, and worked my way up again, and i was stronger then before. then something came and pushed me back down and i know that this time, i have fallen harder then before. so now i have to work my way up again, and be stronger than the person i used to be. i kept thinking, cupid is evil. it does things to me and makes me happy and when im at the peak of my happiness, it tends to lets me drop back down again. my heart isnt made out of stone. im a person too with emotions i kept thinking. how can it do this to me? playing with my emotions. playing with me. 

yes, i admit. im an emotional person when it comes to love. im an emotional person when it comes to alot of things. 

it is hard for you to believe it? *laughs*